alter ego

the list of my multiple personalities:

1. Eugenia
2. Mothra - the giant butterfly, who killed Godzilla
3. little airplane
4. hedgehog
5. Winnie the Pooh
6. ...

"Big Gurly & Longer Curly"

Last year on the New Year's  Eve i ‘ve decided to cut my hair. Once in a while a person feels urges to change smth in him/herself, and to do it with little blood is possible in many ways; one of mine is to change my hair style, not extremely, the color is unquestionable, i have dark hair and a strong pigment, to change it i would probably need to lighten my hair, which will lead to a loose of my color forever. i prefer cutting somehow, but not too short, my face type is totally against it. i made a big mistake by going to my stylist; she had no even one small opening window pane. Eventually i got almost what i wanted, but the problem with me is i can very get tired with how things are, so after nine moths i realized that i want my hair back, and not back to same length, but longer! (i think it’s because of America’s next top model, they often do gorgeous long hair). ...

house number 1

   one of my friend is very good with horoscopes, serious ones, properly made, specially for you. I once asked  her to compose/write me a precise description based on my date, time and  place of birth. I made up my mind to read one point at a time. 

Number one “Character and appearance", here are some things to remember:

1. seek balance in your life

2. no being jealous, no betraying neither towards you nor from you 

3. communication of ideas, information, mediator between people

4. love learning

5. smb sees you as a child

6. teaching career ( playing a role like on stage)

7. problems with responsibility

8. creative work

9. laws, limits, structure laws piss off

10. lack of assiduity

11. quite emotional, imaginative

12. do as think is the best

part of my multiple personalities... and i'm loving it, but can alter couple of things, each of us has some angles to whittle down

first day of my life

   so cliche to start a new life from Monday. So what? let me be classy. in my humble opinion, every start needs preparations, i've made mine on Sunday- a list of what and when to do. the main question which appeared in my head was when does the day end? variant a - at 00:00. variant b-the moment you go to bed. variant c - with the sunset. my personal choice is b.
   at first, i've made couple of promises (rare thing for me to make even one). number one: to write every day, i was once told, that if you want to be a writer,you should do it everyday no matter what (twitter and blog for starters), i'll make at least 5 pins and pinterest.com ( incredible thing). number two: i've registered myself  at worktrek.ru ( i think there are other options, i' ve chosen this for it's nice green clock), it allows you to make a list of deeds and by the end of the week it shows your progress and productivity, oh yeah! a red light on some unfamiliar web-site arises shame in me, strange but it helps, so don't be judgmental.

   i started the list with my daily routine, classes and private students and continued with something small like painting my nails. i'm thinking of adding to it everyday reading three pages of a book. it's also good that you can move plans without ruining your productivity chart.
   with a big smile and positive thinking i'm ready to greet my new life with "hello!"

   your life is what you want it to be,don't be shy, plan great things,like conquering the world,it's worth it!!

"Screw this plan. I think we could both use a drink."

don't think that i'some kind of alcoholic or a party girl. my father used to drink a lot, it was an integral part of his job, my problem is ans was, i always wanted to be him, i was never afraid of alcohol of any kind. my father is sober for 10 years now, he kept repeating if you drink, drink something of good quality and expensive. my fav is whiskey with coca-cola. a week ago one guy while sitting on my red coach,  a fan of healthy living, with a voice good for telling horror stories on a Halloween night told me some details of how one milligram of alcohol affects biologically a woman's organism, after 7 minutes  of listening i've decided no more! there is one thing in my life i always wanted most of all - to have healthy kids, when you wish for something badly, it's not a big problem to give up something you do not need that much, something you can live without. sometimes in life it is so easy to pick one out of two.

"sincerity is always good, oral or written"

Marcus Tullius Cicero "Letters to Friends" CVIII To Lucceius: 

Coram me tecum eadem haec agere saepe conantem deterruit pudor quidam paene subrusticus, quae nunc exprimam absens audacius, epistula enin non erubescit 

I have often tried to say to you personally what I am about to write, but was prevented by a kind of almost clownish bashfulness. Now that I am not in your presence I shall speak out more boldly: a letter does not blush.

“Aw. You better be careful. Your humanity’s showing.”

sometime in future

   when i was five my father told me that tears do not help physical pain. at five you believe everything your parents tell you, so was i, since than i've  never left too much of salt water out of my eyes. i kept all my extra feelings in nice old medieval trunk, to which one of my multiple personalities lost or probably hid the key. i'm sure i owe him or her a basket of fruits kind of thank you note, i really appreciate the help, but may be in a while i'll ask it back. for now i'm good=)